Excuse this disorganized post I’m about to write out for you, but this one has to be quick. I realized this blog has unfortunately slipped out from my list of priorities, and though that may appear as lack of dedication, it also hints at the busy schedule I’ve been tending to. I’m a high school student balancing a social life with academics while being HOSA club Vice President, an active member of a handful of clubs, part time party hostess at my local bowling alley, and now I’m a tutor! I’ve recently started helping out a 7th grader with different topics twice a week after school, namely math and science. While she is already an exceptionally bright student, I’m interested in finding out whether or not I can successfully translate and teach my odd learning methods to my new prodigy. 🙂

Although I’ve made grand progress towards a more mature self, I do anticipate some unfortunate news in the next few days. Earlier this school year, I had applied for a full scholarship to study abroad in Morocco or Jordan and learn Arabic through the NSLI-Y program. This week, I did not get an acceptance email, so I can only assume I will receive a rejection on April 1st.

Of course I am bummed that I’m missing out on an amazing opportunity to experience the world for free through government funded language and cultural study, but I’m surprisingly okay. Despite the negative news, I’m elated to say that I have achieved my goal of a 95+ on a processed AP English paper. Thoroughly inspired by my fascination and appreciation of Hamlet and tragedies in general, my essay had a killer title: Prince Hamlet: Shakespeare’s Cathartic Vessel for the Universally Repressed Afflictions. You can read it here.

Speaking of tragedies, my lack of plans for this summer seem to be a tragedy indeed… But alas, I know everything will work itself out… hopefully? My back up plan failed before I got rejected from NSLI-Y; I was going to try to earn college credit for multivariable calculus or linear algebra through a community college, but my counselor warned against it, in case it may affect my eligibility for freshmen status scholarships when actually enrolling into a 4-year university. Then I attempted to find options to audit a course… same deal… So now I’m left with the option of self-studying, which I will probably end up doing.

I am immensely intimidated by the amount of motivation required to self-study, since there is no credit/reward, but I look to my initial reason for endeavoring this far into math: to learn. That’s all I really want to do. Learn it. It is with this reasoning that I hope to make significant progress in teaching myself multivariable calculus this summer. (and maybe another language?)

Well that concludes our short catch up session! I really haven’t got much else to say now, so bYe !


how on earth did we get this far?

I realize I haven’t posted in a while, and that’s due to school, my job, and extracurriculars. To update: I now work at the bowling alley; I am co-starting a volunteer service project; and I am currently being swamped with application essays.

As for my writing progress, I can definitely say it’s starting to show in my essays, thanks to my super cool, hippie english teacher. This post is actually another school discussion post I wrote in class that I think is worth the read.

Nowadays, it may be easy to assume that we, as a society, have spliced out the critical thinking processes that flow between question and answer through our ease of access to information; we no longer need to discover fire, the wheel, or evolution, as these things have grown into our society’s common knowledge. But this assumption could not be further from the truth. We continue to innovate and explore in every realm of “-ology” that exists. However, humanity did not endure thousands of years of existence through solely reasoning its way through history. We are not robots, and though we strive for perfection, our flaws are rooted in behavior influenced by emotions and the unexplainable. Many wars have been fought with subjective and selfish motivations. Humans have a track record of being ruthless killers, emotional wrecks, addicts, and impassioned believers. We are far more complex than just reason; we have built definitions of ethics and have political debates over systems we constructed from the ground up. Though we as a species are robust thinkers, we cannot ignore our profound reputation of biased beliefs and the larger implications they have on our society. Our deepest intuitions could never explain why many of us hold religious beliefs, or why we feel secondhand embarrassment, or why we cry when dogs die in movies. How is it possible that we can be both boastful and self-deprecating? Why are we so sensitive to attacks on our deep-held ideas? In an attempt to study the world empirically, we try to keep our worldview perspectives isolated from each other. In doing so, we sacrifice the bigger picture; these lenses are not inherently separate. In fact, I actually believe our intellect, passion, goofiness, and even our psychotic tendencies complement each other pretty well through variation and makes for an even more adaptive society.

should dreams become jobs???

With a seemingly incurable case of writer’s block and silence from potential employers, my summer has not been as productive as I would’ve liked it to be. However I’ve been hitting the gym, crossing books off my reading list, travelling to visit family, and studying random topics to my heart’s content. Lately, though, I have been putting off a serious responsibility (and I’m not talking about my summer reading… though I haven’t done that either). No. This responsibility requires far more brain power but much less scholarly effort. This terrible task is deemed the birthday speech.

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the world is sinking… america wyd???

The school year ended a few days ago, and I’ve been reduced to a congested mess. Without stressful routines, I guess my immune system decided that now was prime time to relax as well. Drifting in and out of consciousness, I figured it’d be unwise to start a post from scratch, so here’s a modified version of one of my favorite essays I turned into my english teacher this year.

In light of Trump’s decision to withdraw from the Paris Climate Accord, I dedicate this post to the issue of global warming. It is a serious issue, and it is our duty to find solutions. This post will not rant on Trump’s decision, but rather a long standing competition between man and nature. On balance, the US has contributed a large bulk of the world’s total carbon dioxide emissions. This is, in part, due to the nature of our economy; it focuses on the consumer. But our political decisions remain just as culpable.

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ode to music

Exam season is dragging by, and there are only so many remedies to the stress it brings. Recently, my taste in music has been revitalized and revamped, thanks to a few good friends of mine.

It still amazes me how drastically my tastes have evolved throughout my life; from Hannah Montana to One Direction to my emo middle school @$$ and now this electronic/indie/pop/R&B/Jazz conglomeration, I’ve always felt so connected to what I’ve listened to.

Music can help put you into a mood or help pull you out of one. Whether it be an upbeat song to get you ready for the day or a sad song to make the atmosphere sympathize with your emotions, music has the power to play on our heart strings in a way that speaking cannot. Language in itself holds amazing power; as Mark Pagel once said in a Ted Talk on language, it miraculously “allows you to implant a thought from your mind directly into someone else’s mind… without having to perform surgery.” Music takes that one, grand, leaping step forward by adding even more emotion and tone to the message. Continue reading “ode to music”

the problem with education

Some people loathe school, and sometimes I do too. At the end of every lesson, I am left thinking: “What’s the point? Why are we coloring? Why are we learning such trivial facts? How does this actually connect to the real world?”

We force high energy children to sit and endure a lengthy school day with only 30-minute recess breaks. We load homework onto high school students that also have to keep up with extra-curriculars and personal responsibilities. Even our “creative” classes like art and wood-shop enforce a rubric. Nowadays, school is becoming a center for stress and uniform thought.

That’s a major flaw in our “prized education system.” I love learning. I love the idea of understanding a concept and applying that knowledge to my life. But sometimes school destroys that fondness; sometimes the strict rubrics and unsympathetic teachers hinder intellectual growth by defining creativity.

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